Work in progress

One thing that I always find hard to come to terms with is the fact that I am a work in progress. Rather, it is not necessarily difficult to see that I am always changing and moving forward--but that it is difficult to make decisions knowing that fact. 

Yet those decisions, no matter how risky and uninformed they may be, are what ultimately shape our progress. 

I recently came across this little quip that inspired these thoughts: "You're a work in progress, but you have purpose!" 

At this point in my life, no phrase could describe my mindset any better. I may not have any idea where I'll end up, what career I will have or who will still be by my side, but I do know that I am determined to push on. 

Nothing is certain, which is why we need so much determination. I can spend hours laying in the grass dreaming of my future career and my dream apartment accompanied by a quirky black pug, yet there's no chance of that becoming a reality unless I press on with purpose. 

I've learned that the most difficult part is not finding a dream or a lofty goal, but the purpose that one needs to get there. Our goals are constantly changing, but if we maintain a certain amount of determination, there's no limit to the happiness that we can achieve. 

I'm easily one of the most anxious people I know. That anxiety, however, is not always a bad thing. It can be a voice in the back of my head asking if I have done enough, or if I can go above and beyond in a project or job. It's what drives me to take the extra step and reach out my hand to introduce myself to someone I admire. 

My anxiety can easily consume me or it can fuel me to persevere. It is a trait that I hate, but I've also come to accept and act on to further myself. I ask: Why am I overthinking this? And if I can reach an answer amongst that suffocating pile of random tangents, I can find something to tackle and act to change. 

I know that I will always be a work in progress. I don't think that there will ever come a point in my life where I will be able to come to a complete stop. As long as I have a purpose, I will press on. 

(She by Kobi Yamada)